myselff.

inspired by taylor.

only a few people read my blog.
i feel like i must be honest.
more be honest to myself.

- i dislike my body. neck to knees.
- i hate my height. due to my height i have large feet, so i can't buy nice shoes.
and the old saying "your weight goes up and down but shoes will always feet" doesn't apply to me.
- i wish i looked like lily allen.
- i wish i was a perfect size 14 like marilyn monroe.
- i dig into the sides of my thumbs with my nails, when i've done something i shouldn't have.
- i like the grumbling noise of my stomach when its hungry, i get happy because in 10mins it'll be gone so i won't have to eat.
- i wish i could live of vegemite and cruskits.
- i believe i am some sort of male repellent, boys never ever like me.
- i fear i'll be a spinster all my life.
- i wish i was talented.
- i make myself think to eat small and healthy, then i go and eat load of fatty foods just to spite myself.
- i've put on too much weight, but i have no will power to get rid of it.
- i get a bit weirded out when i go out, as if its a big practical joke and no one will be there.
- i dislike wearing make-up, except for eyeshadow and masscara.
- i mostly wear high waisted skirst because it makes me look skinner.

i guess im mostly insecure and will never be completely happy with myself.
which i must change.
"you must love yourself before other begin to love you"
but thats difficult if there no driving reason for you to love yourself if no one it interested.

xx