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it has arrived.
my doom has arrived.
today is wednesday 15th of october.
on friday i shall begin the most important exams in my life so far.
and i think i'm almost prepared for all.
im ready yet im still worried.
but i can make it.
if you imagine it, you achieve it. if you dreamt it, you can become it - William Arthur Ward.
xx
[insert = random artwork. i wish i was her. she seems like a dreamer.]
FIREWORKS!!
i always hear them in my room.
everytime i look out my window, they stop.
it's like the fireworks are against me.
it's like the whole world it against me.
today has been like a really shit day.
i don't know why.
last night had an argument with family.
today everything seemed real bitter.
woke up terribly late.
was tired the whole day.
was real upset.
and no idea why.
it must me the stress building up for senior exams.
they coming up fast.
and i can't catch up.
i fear i'll be choking on their dust.
while thats happening another passes me by.
i'll never win.
never achieve anything.
but for a pessimist im pretty optomistic.
and i see a future, just like a magic 8 ball. outlook good. >__<
xx
[insert = po and zi, my favourite because there's not text and it has stars. stars are the only thing capable of making me forget my problems. if only i saw more of them]
well.
this year i've:
- worked for a year
- been to the city at night with friends only
- been more independent
- seen various concerts
- came first in visual design
- second in art
- excelled in ancient history in a short period
- graduated
but i would'nt have managed any of this with out my friends.
new and old
lost and found
young and old
all of them
they're matured me.
changed me slightly.
enlightened me.
it brings a tear to my eye to think i won't see half of them again.
and the majority of times i'll see the other are casual bumps in the street.
i'll miss all of them so much.
especially my crazy group.
although the end was shit and we hardly saw each other, but when we were together it was great.
i don't know how this year would turn out with out you stars we call friends.
i'd probably be a big mess.
thankyou for all the memories and the stories i'll tell forever.
xx
[insert= kudzo, doosey, rosie posie, viv and myself in a star.]
some people annoy me!
but JUNO! doesn't :)
i love juno.
i bought a juno tee today
and now im listening to the soundtrack.
yum micheal cera. :)
xx
[insert = Juno McGuff and Paulie Bleeker. Paulie Bleeker is the cheese to my maccoroni.]
AHHHHH!
so i went metro station last nightt.
at the roundhouse @ UNSW.
pretty much awesomeeee. like seriously, i didn't think it would be that good. they sounded exactly like the cd but a little better.
also, there was more boys than i expected.
the people i was with were awesome. :)
tell me what to do - the best. i loved it.
they room obvisously went crazy when 'shake it' started.
and trace took off his shirt. and yumm.
haha.
i never found him that attractive, till now. hes such a show man.
and i have a think for lanky boys haha.
and the snyth guy. mmm nerdy.
haha.
but overall a great nightt.
i went to bed around 3am and have only just woken up and its 1:47pm what a waste of a day >___< style="font-style: italic;">[insert = metro station bebeh.]
ughh!
what is with people. kids on my msn list saying they're in love and its been 3 days since they got to together. i find it absolutely pathetic. have a relationship, thats fine. but never say 'love you till forever' that is just silly. especially for a 14 year old, or younger. or even a 17 year old to say. chances are you don't know what love is.
i have my feelings about love, i've never been in love, but i do love people. but people like that just annoy me, wait a year then confess your love. but myself.
im pretty much a hopeless romantic. my modern day knight in shining armour would be a boy who would ask me with song, he could sing and or play acoustic guitar, his own song or yellow by coldplay. he'd get my attention by tapping my window and stand outside and play at night. i'd be so smitten i'd most probably faint.
i dream alot >___< thats only a dream. i wish i was in a movie relationship, they seem perfect, even their downs seem perfectly down.
i don't really want a boyfriend right now, nor would anyone want me as a girlfriend. im like the most unwanted yet people think i've had many relationships. mehh.
young love = lame.
xx
[insert = chuck bass and blair waldorf: gossip girl. yum]
I'M A GRADUATE of LGHS!!!
i feel different.
but i still feel like a total kid.
hsc in 2 weeks.
with the end of school comes the end of friendships, i don't feel it yet, but i can see it coming. but i guess its a learning curve. but saying that i must be the wisest girl in the friends dept. gone through many ups and downs and lost so many.
i'm glad i didn't waste my last year.
i'm glad how it turned out.
i wish i could relieve all of it over again. the good the bad. everything happens for a reason and im so glad it did. i love 08, the end is near but its only getting better.
i can taste the freedom on my tounge. i won't be seventeen forever but gosh i wish i was, but with age comes freedom, until im old and grey is when the controlling begins again but i won't care, because i'll be with my best friend, side my side struggling to remember each others names, but talking about the good times.
but the good times are still being created, i never pass up a chance to create them. i love every moment of my youth. i wish i was forever young. but i don't think i could handle it with all the young 'ladies' that are becoming the youth of today. prancing around in skirts and shorts that would barely pass as underwear, acting tens year older, swearing like a sailor and drinking like one too is not the way.
oh take me back the age of innocence. how i dream of growing up in the 40's/50's minus the second world war and all. but the morals, the dress sense, the films, the music. mmm pure bliss. even the pin ups were delightfully modest. i love it.
anyways a bit off topic >___<
xx
[insert = me and daizy, pre grad]
